After all that worrying my trip was a good one. My dear friend of thirty plus years and host were heading to his car and I asked if this trip I appeared any better at which he replied, yes. It wasn't easy, but therapy and new cocktail of medications since 2010, one needs to make an effort and I did. I pushed myself each day, I took my medications within the full limit of the prescription to make it through each day and night. Part of me wanted to let all my friends and family know that I'm doing better, and the other part of me just needed to try.
Now the hard part, if I could do it while on vacation then I should be able to do it back home, back out into a life as a gay man who so much wants to continue to meet people. Isolation isn't fun.
One of my readers just wrote the very root of coping with all of this, breathe, or even better breathing exercises for when you feel the world is caving in on you, when you feel a panic attack coming on, remember to breathe, then if you have medication take them, if not call a doctor and have yourself evaluated. If you are LGBT, living with HIV and depression or possible mental illness please visit my website bipolar bear, here you will find a comprehensive list of LGBT affirmative centers and clinics in your State.
Here are some links on coping skills, these coupled with therapy and medication, exercise, sleep, we've read all of these, it works, but it takes a lot of work. Can you fall, yes! Can you get up and start over again, yes! I have and continue to struggle, but like this last trip, I keep getting back up.
Audio - Coping Skills
HIV-AIDS Treatment: Increase Body-Oxygen Levels